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It all started in 4th grade, a day before a who-i-thought-was-my-friend(s) was gonna have a birthday party, so day before the birthday party at school we ate candy, chips and drank soda all day long because i was moving away with my mother and my brother, my parents were separating, the total cost for all that junk food came up to 100 - 300 dollars. That's shit load of money and what a way they repayed me back

So the next day at whats-his-name birthday party, it was awesome as any birthday party, later on we went to his basement where all the kids were doing they're thing. I was in the basement too, only i was in far-away land I.E i was day dreaming, so much i don't know how long i was gone. Suddenly everyone ran up but me because i don't know what exactly happened, all i recall is some fucking lego shit falling from the wall, then the whats-his-name mom came down, put them back up and YELLED at me, those fucking jackasses sold me out, what a fucking way to repay me right? Yesterday we all ate junk the ENTIRE school day and this is how they repay me, thanks guys, i'll be sure to ruin your faces the next time we meet.
So i ran up to the nearest bathroom crying, remember this was in 4th grade!
Even now as i type this, my anger builds up towards those kids who were supposed to be my friends and the fucking bitch, so if i get post all hateful, please understand why.
Does it end there? Nope, there's more to come!

So when we moved to the new house i started in the local school, i even get anxiety by thinking of it, first day of school i actually started to cry because i sat alone, the reason why i cried will be writen later on. Then during the break, i shun everyone away who wanted to be my friend because i just wanted to be alone, even to this day i don't know why i did that, this is also the cause of my anxiety. I wasn't always alone however, my bestest of friend later on cought me and we've been friends ever since. Still it wasn't that great at the school, i was kinda picket on by 2 kids, the reason is i was VERY violent kid at the time, i was the kid who drew war pictures, bloody battlefields and all that, only they 2 did it. No one else picked on me, just left me alone which i appreciate them for, i rather be left alone than be picket on for it.

But i wasn't always lonely, i did get some few friends i stuck around with, which was cool, but they RARELY spendt any time with me after school hours. If i actually met them outside just taking a walk, if i try to join in, they try to chase me away which has happened many times, also the reason for anxiety. They really never cared about me, i doubt they would miss me if i die, so fuck them.

So during my childhood, i beat up a kid twice because he asked for it, when i lost it there were few who could calm me down, but if they couldn't, they most likely had to drag me away from the victim. I now remember i punched a girl in the arm... one of the reasons for major anxiety... oh god do i ever regret doing that. I hope she will forgive me for that.
Once i had an argument with one of the 2 who picked on me, i don't remember what he said but i exploded on him, so i grapped a very large piece of wood, a thick blunt spear and i RAMMED it up his back as hard as i could, he isn't paralyzed or anything, he's doing just fine... well except the time i rammed that blunt spear up his back, all his friends was pissed at me but i didn't pay attention, this happened in 5th or 6th grade. I got my bike and rode out of there, they formed a line, but i lifted the front of my bike which scared them for some reason but it worked, they broke off and i didn't come back for 2 days. During my time at the child school i left the school 3 times and skipped hours while at school due to STRONG negative emotions, strangely the teacher did not care, which was cool.
I remember once before i left the school, again, my fav teacher came and convinced me to stay, i was put in a room where i let my hate out. You can bet there was a lot of noise came from that room.

It wasn't always so bad at the school, i did have my share of fun and small time good memories. So in 8th grade, new school and new start for life! I have more good memories from this school except for one fatal flaw they made, they didn't adapt school hours perfectly for me, i'm mildly retarded, that's why they were supposed to adapt school to me, i was supposed to have 4th grade math book but they gave me 8th grade math book and homework that STRESSED THE LIVING FUCK OUT OF ME! In 9th grade they payed the price for this, severly, i was diognosed with psychosis; voices in head and violent pictures that would make you feel nausea. So they felt the guilt, they felt the anger from my parents and a shrink, a teacher got fired for this! But as i said, i had more good time at this school than the last, so i don't know if i should be mad or not! Should i visit them and be mad? Or forgive them?

So i was in a mental hospital for 3 weeks, the cover story was for depression, which ironically, we had a very depressed kid in our class, literally, he had the mental disease; depression. Anyway, how was the mental hospital? It was boring but, i was relaxed and good time to chill out and forget the stress.
When i got back, it was good, 2 months before summer in 9th grade i broke my arm so complicated they had to give it surgery and place it back! O.o How was it brokened? In my left arm, the left bone broke upwards, the right bone broke downwards, then twist them 360 degrees and the arm wasn't connected to the elbow! So yea, very complicated, i asked the doctor how i disconnected my elbow from the arm when i landed like superman, literally, i landed straight down with my left arm touching the ground, i was like a stick on the ground when i crashed XD He joked about it and asked me "how DID you do it?" awesome doctor.

After that, t'was cool, in the next school i began in, no bad memory there, pure awesome school, first year was awesome, 2nd year is the best year of my life in school, third year was kinda dissapointing because everyone was spread out in the school ): still cool though.

And i still remember to write why i cried the first day of school, my self-esteem was LOW, major low, even to this day it's low, i don't have much confident in me because since then no one has believed in me, and i have been betrayed so many times i have serious issues trusting people, i only trust 1 or 2 persons in my life, maybe more. Even recent times people have said "you can trust me" only to be later on betrayed by them, so i think... i really can't trust anyone, maybe i don't trust anyone at all.
I'm just so afraid to be betrayed, the pain has sown in my heart so much and so tight i can't even cry about it, i try to force it out but none comes out, i'm a fucking robot

So there's me, i'm just a paranoid kid with mental problems and serious issues in trusting people, but i guess that is what makes some of us normal... maybe not. But then again what is normal? No one really is, it's just an illusion created by people so they can pretent they don't have any problems when they infact do, just don't want to admit it. They may or may not have any problems, but these days, many have, like to fucking pickers. I hate pickers so much, the classic case is teenagers picking on 10 year olds or less, yea, they're the bravest around aren't they?

You could say i got a pessimistic outlook on mankind, i think mankind are, stupid, dumb, retarded and everything that is related to stupitity
So many dumb idiots who donate to "stop drugs" campaign, or donate money to save Africa. The ones who shout out "we must save Africa by giving them money and charity!" That's one of the most stupid campaigns i have ever known.
Money can't save Africa, charity can't save Africa but action will! There's too many Warlords there, there's too many corrupt politics there, and the entire world wonders "why isn't the African president allowing major invading force enter they're shores and kill all those Warlods"
Let me tell you, you god damn idiot; Because they make money OFF the Warlords AND the corruption that is there, if that was to vanish, so would they're money, i can almost 95% guarentee you, major business men and politicians feed off the poor and steal income and taxes for themselves!
As i said, only action can save this country, and that is a major armada force storming the entire country, with or without the president's authorization! The Warlods MUST be killed, every single one of them, leave none alive! Throw-off the president and ALL current politicians, send in foreign politicians and have them stay there until Africa has a new set of politicians to do the rest of the work.

I can read your mind right now "what about the soldier children?" It doesn't take a freakin' genious to figure out this problem, give the soldiers tranquilizing darts! Give the Trang to the children and real live bullets to the grown ups; simple

I really hate protesters against the war, not all of them, but the people who shout at them "killer! murderer! you deserve to go to hell!" I FUCKING HATE THEM They're ignorance is a fucking hammer to the face! They don't know what they've been through, they don't know what they have done! Yet they stand there calling them monsters, i got some news for you: You are the real fucking monster for not considering they're feelings and blatant disregard what they've been through. Here's my message to those kind of protesters: FUCK YOU, fuck you, you ignorant piece of fucking shit, if i ever face one of you, i'll drag you're face across the cement ground then force you to join the army and sendt to the worst place in Iraq.

If God or Jesus ever came down here, they would look down on ALL of us and say "i'm so, so disappointed in you all" and i can gurantee you, most of the world would cry from that statement.

I can't figure out any more to say about me, or i just don't want to, i'll prolly update this as the time goes. Bai for now

He travelled far and wide, fought many battles and won, blood, sweat and tears finally to pay off. His time fighting for his life and others, suffered pain beyond measures and seen death far too many times to count. Only to see his Lover be stabbed in the heart right in front of him, everything fell apart for him, he fell to his knees and cried like no man has ever cried and cursed the Demon's name. He failed...

All he could think of was his failure to her, tears ran from his eyes like a waterfall and his scream was of great pain, the sword holding him up before his hands hit the ground, he could not any longer hold it, he let go and fully hit the ground. His journey, his blood, his pain, his life... has been all for nought, in his mind, his heart he failed her.

Suddenly he stopped crying, he looked at the demon responsible for killing her, for killing Charlotte, he picked up his sword and a massive outburst of power exploded from him and a great wave of power hit stones and ground, both shatter and the planet trembles. His eyes, once again had that stare, a predator's stare just as a predator is gonna kill his prey, only this time, evil and a devoid stare was there too. His mind was focused on one and only one intention.

To kill this Demon
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Well, i doubt any of you know this XD Well, me and Netting were never an official couple but i knew the day we met would say something else. We had a long distant relationship, the last one did not end well, she says she does not want another one. She cannot hide the truth, i know that she is afraid, she does not dare to have another one and i understand that. I am not mad at her, or the fact she found another guy, REMEMBER: We weren't a couple so she did not cheat on me, as i were saying i'm not mad at her for finding a man, but i am mad at her for not talking to me about this, i've helped her in the past and i can most certainly help her with this issue.

Even though i will not see her again, i have seen pictures of her, and got to know her. She is by far the most beautiful girl i have ever seen and the most unique, i have never witnessed someone like her and never will again. What can i say? I love her, i really do and it will take some time to get over her, no matter what she says, she will always be my beautiful angel, who's lips i'm longing to kiss and to gaze into her eyes under the stars. Even though she lives far away from i would have visited and love every single moment.

She said she doesn't want to hurt me, and i know that. But she hurt me when she would not speak to me about the long distant relationship... I love you Netting, no matter what you say i must take my time to get over you. This is not my final farewell, i am happy we are friends, it's just that... I'm a friend who is in love with her.

Even though we never met, i miss how we were.

That's all i can say, leave whatever comments you like but not "emo, go kill yourself" If you have not experienced this, you have no rights to say such a thing. Not even the Freedom of Speech, you have no rights to say that, until you have personally experienced it.

Yea i forgot to check out how you do it, so Newgrounds.com how do i embed vids? D:

Yup, i have completely given up on it. I have tried for so many times right now with no success at all, i can try for a while on them when suddenly they meet ONE GUY on the FIRST DAY and then they are an official couple, which has happened all the time to me. Now, my latest one, who's name shall not be mentioned, i think the same thing has happened. Although we were a couple, it was a long distance relationship and we made an agreement that i am to visit her this summer, get a job, earn money and look forward for the wonderful i can finally meet her. However, that is now a huge broken glass, and another dagger to my collection on my back, i guess this makes this my 33th - 35th dagger, can you guess how depressed a man can get when his final thin thread of hope of Love is savagely shattered and left another dagger in the wound. Although i am not yet sure, i have asked her if she has gotten a new BF because of her text message, and of course i did not get a reply but i intend to call her. But if this is true, then my final thread of hope is shattered forever, i will never seek out love again. Am i saying i'm gay? No, if i can get a one night stand with a girl, i'll go for it, just not be her BF.

Zombies, yes, ZOMBIES. Just how AWESOME are they? I mean, think about, you can do whatever you want to them; cut of they're penis, shove them up they're asses and make sarcastic comments like "go fuck yourself" how awesome is that? Or rip of they're own arm and shove it in they're own mouth and taunt them with your own flesh! Until some sort of a massive tank comes crushing through every zombie and you have to run your ASS OFF away from them (Thank you Left 4 Dead! :D)

So, when the entire world is overrun with zombies, of course, you are allowed to make any weapon you want and pimp your ride! Pimping your car with spikes'n shit, but then you would need a very strong soap to get rid of the odor :\ BUT ON TO THE WEAPONS!

What would my weapon be you ask? A motherfuckin' minigun, but not the regular one, a minigun that fires freakin' bazooka rounds, then a Hk416 with a fuckin' katana or a Chainsaw attached under it, like a Chainsaw gun! (Thank you Gears of War people, thanks for unleashing that to my mind :)) of course you would need a mask or something because think of all the zombie blood spreading everywhere!

What would i done to my car? easy, add chainsaw at the front and at the side of my car, and 2 miniguns attached at the top of my car (for the Tank Zombies) and have so much god damn fun i forgot i ran over one of ma friends, ye, i would cried the rest of the time, think of that. Crying all the time while running over zombies instead of laughing, LAIK! EMO! I can actually see this in front of me: Some emo guy in a car running over zombies all like "Why mom?!?! whyyyyy!?!?!?" or something :3

Bottom line, zombies are awesome, as long as you don't see your friends. You can kill them in any way you want and no one will care :D
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can you spot the stolen joke? :3

Just to underline from what problems i'm having in the forum: This is NOT a full guideline! And never will be! everything has to do with experience, these are just basic guidelines and to help you get started. It would take you a full freakin' book to make you a womanizer. So please be aware, in practice it's way more different from what you read here. Just be aware and mindful and think of the tips here.

So please remember as you read the REAL post, this are just basic guidelines and some tips.

And for the love of GOD! Don't criticize me, when was it wrong actually helping people? Yea! This is some problems as well! Wanting to close the thread, now now. I respect when they are like that and go all like "close this thread" because you gotta expect that right? But what i have discovered when some one actually writes to help, they managed somehow to take that small negative thing and turn it into a large on!

So please, if you got any REAL REASONS this shouldn't be posted, then hold it. If it's not a real reason, i'll just delete the comment.
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It's not a myth, it's not a legend. There are in fact men having problems talking to girls either they are too shy or say something stupid. So i decided to provide some guidelines for you men who's having problems.

What do i talk to girls about?
Easy, you talk to them as they are your friends, but don't talk about games with her or how you beat up someone recently, first impression is very important. Then what do you talk about with her? Talk about her, ask her questions but not all the time because she has to know you too, talk more about her and less about you. Girls likes to talk.

I know a girl but she ignores me, what have i done/said?
Could be alot, it depends what you said mostly, don't talk to her about how much you like the pussy and how hard and long you would do her. No NO NO it's literally a taboo to talk to her about that kind of stuff, never EVER. Ok, what did you do... physical contact, never grab her ass, legs, shins, belly, bewbs. Done any of these, then goodbye for ever! They want to be treated with respect! Huggin' is ok when she feels like it or need it, and don't grab her ass when you hug her!

I'm not shy to talk to girls but, whenever i see a hot girl i don't know how to approach her. How do i approach them for the first time?
This is more easy than you think, find something to talk about, if she has a book (excluding school book) rented from the library, approach her and ask some questions about it. But of course she may say "i haven't read it yet, i just rented it" then you could ask "so what made you rent it?" and let it go natural from there. WARNING: If she is carrying a laptop, by the GODS are you taking one mean chance talking her about it! Find out some small info if she is into PC's first!

When i'm on a date, should i pick the movie? Or should i let her?
Let her choose the movie, and buy the the stuff she wants for her, if she asks (which she prolly will) "why do you want to buy them for me?" you got 3 answers
1) I feel like it, besides, you might need them for the future
NOTE: If or when she asks, "what would i need them for?" cleverly answer "for what you really want in the future" or "You never know when you need that extra 20"
2) I got some few extra bucks i wanna burn
NOTE: She might think you are a rich person, please avoid it
3) "you should save it, for later" Her answer is unpredicted
Ok, just let her pick the movie, whatever she picks, for the love of all holy and unholy gods don't go against it. It's prolly gonna be a long boring drama movie but hey, she wants to know you want her to be happy.

I know a girl, is it important to know when she get's a new haircut or new set of clothing?
This goes to boyfriends and friends actually, for boyfriends it's way more important to notice a change, but if you are a friend, for her it's nice to know that you noticed her new haircut or her new clothing

Should i give them a compliment?
Sure, just tell them they look good today or something ;P
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well this is all what i can think of, got any questions then just ask!

Ok, so good luck!